Random Stuff March 10, 2008
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Last night conversation was…… I’m not sure really. I don’t even know what I got upset about. Strange, how a “I can’t be bothered” can hurt one so much.
Too tired to think. Don’t think, breath in, out.
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In the bus on a rainy Sunday evening, the following realisation hit me.
1. The one that just did not work out
2. The one that was not meant to be.
3. The one that did not end well.
Wonder what would be the pitch for the next one.
:: Things change :: March 7, 2008
Posted by dagger in Missing you.add a comment
So I told the story for what I hope is the last time yesterday to Kanmei. I did not really want to relive it again. But it was Kanmei. Some things never change.
She agrees with the other one that the whole situation has been pretty unfair to me as well. And right on cue, I found myself trying to defend her again. Kanmei says I’m too nice; she just gave me that glare she does and left it at that. Some things never change.
Perhaps its really true that nan ren bu huai, nu ren bu ai. Times like this I wish there really is a supranormal being that I can appeal to for understanding. Reflection only gets me this far; I don’t have anyone with the right perspective, and knowledge of my history.
But Kanmei really surprised me. She picked up the gist of the story and could even predict where things were going, though she missed some of the more extreme happenings. We even had similar views on her behaviour. She’s bad news for you, she said. It’s better that you don’t get involved with her. I listen, but still I wonder if I could say no if things do change.
This just reminds me of how well she knows me. Wasn’t it only a few years ago that I was the one listening to her boyfriend stories? Things change.
