Leap Years February 29, 2008
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29th Feb 2004:
Just ended a relationship
Looking for a job/internship
Seeing people around me getting attached
29th Feb 2008:
Ended chances of a relationship
Looking for a new job
Seeing people around me getting married
4 frakin’ years to reach the same place.
Meeting you again… February 26, 2008
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… was not painful at all.
Breath.
:: :: February 22, 2008
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I just found out an hour ago that she changed her relationship status on FB last night.
Not sure what I am feeling now. Not anger, not at her anyway. Him? If the timing seems right, I could be the one who came in suddenly and almost spoilt his chances.
It was not like the last time. No bitterness. Well, a tinge at the fates for toying with me yet again.
If there is a reason for this, I really cannot see it……
Lying in the dark… February 18, 2008
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… as I stared into the darkness. The light from the handphone showed 03:12, no calls, no messages. Tossing and turning does not help at all.
:: End of Smiles :: February 15, 2008
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… for now I guess.
It was an interesting over the last month. Cliche coming up: Never thought I would feel like that again……
But all good things come to an end. She made her decision, and I have made mine. The last two hours was the most roller coaster of a lunch/coffee break I ever had. But it made me come to a realisation that I do not want to repeat the mistakes of three years ago. Guess everyone else was right; just took me this long to understand that no matter what the reason(s), she’s not ready now and nothing I do is going to change that. Going forward, I may not know how my feelings will change. That is the future’s problem. Now, I just want to go back to being single me again.
I may never know if her friend has anything to do with it. Somehow, it ceased being a factor anymore. It just does not matter.
Thinking about why I like her, and the others as well. The best answer I can come up with is that I felt genuine emotions with them. Brutal to say this but yes, I can be quite the emotionless animal sometimes despite what people may perceive. It was different with the three of them though. I went through the gamut of human emotions with them and I felt every heart skip, every heart pain. The first two really threw me for a loop when things ended. Perhaps it is time to try not be emo when things do not go my way.
When You were Young February 5, 2008
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You sit there in your heartache
Waiting on some beautiful boy to
To save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness
Watch him now, here he comes
He doesn’t look a thing like Jesus
But he talks like a gentleman
Like you imagined when you were young
Can we climb this mountain, I don’t know
Higher now than ever before, I
Know we can make it if we take it slow
Thats thinking easy, easy now, watch it go
We’re burning down the highway skyline on the
Back of a hurricane that started turning
When you were young
When you were young
And sometimes you close your eyes
And see the place where you used to live
When you were young
[When You Were Young lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]
They say the devil’s water, it ain’t so sweet
You don’t have to drink right now
But you can dip your feet
Every once in a little while
You sit there in your heartache
Waiting on some beautiful boy to
To save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness
Watch him now, here he comes
He doesn’t look a thing like Jesus
But he talks like a gentleman
Like you imagined when you were young
(Talks like a gentleman, like you imagine)
When you were young
I said he doesn’t look a thing like Jesus
He doesn’t look a thing like Jesus
But more than you’ll ever know
- The Killers
